Thank God for mother's who love their children, because there are some students at my school that I can't stand! I might actually hate them! Ok, ok not hate; you can't really hate an 8 year old, but geeeezzzzzzzz I really really dislike them.
They don't even have to do anything, just as soon as they walk into my classroom all my patience runs out at the very sight of them! Their noises and actions rob me of my smiles, happiness and cheerful disposition that I had just 15mins prior with the previous class. Their eyes harbor a perpetual look of arrogant, contemptuous, loathing that they apply from bell to bell and no encouraging, no activity, no game can stir them from the depths of this distain.
And I hate it. It makes me hate them. And what's worse is that this feeling that 2 or 3 students can invoke within me then gets cast over the entire class. 30 students take audience to my frowns, scowls and darkened behavior all because they have the misfortune of being in the same class as these little shits!
And they are shits! They're shits, they're shits, THEY'RE SHITS!
It is so frustrating. I try to tell myself that each new day will bring them back into my classroom with a better behavior, attitude, effort. That on this particular day they were only shits because they were having a bad day. But each new day is just another punch in the face with how stupid I can be to believe that these shitheads are capable of change. They are rotten to the core and their attitude is the sink drain of all that is miserable.
Perhaps I'm being a bit colorful with my words and descriptions, but ahhhhh there are some students who know just how to ruin my day.
Is that something they teach you when you get a degree in Education?! How to manage frustration created from insolent students?! Because I could use that course. I would love to take the class.
Then again I might just be tired from the weekend and in need of a vacation, but to any and all teachers out there if you have advice - it would be warmly welcomed.
You teach for the ones who want to be there. You don't slight the ones who prompted this blog but you don't kill yourself trying to drag them in to your lesson. Look at the positive and ignore the negative when you evaluate what you did.
ReplyDeleteYour dad has really good advice here Meagan...it's an important mountain for you to climb, and I know you can do it!
ReplyDeleteIt's a shame when a few kids are always ruining the class for everyone else. My 4th grade classes all have a few ADHD kids in them that are always really disruptive. Two weeks ago one of them kept trying to stab another one with a compass! It was awful.
ReplyDeleteOmg I've seen compass all over my classroom as well!! I have no idea why they have them and especially why they need them (and need to have them out!) in English class. We aren't drawing any circles!! :-PAlmost vacation time!! We can do it!! "Fighting!!"
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