I've reached the half way point of my contract and what's the first thing people have been saying to me?! Not, "How's it been?". Not, "How do you feel?". They're asking what's my plan.
My plan? Plan? Do I even know that word? I don't think I have known that word for the last few years. I might even stretch that to most of my life! I didn't plan to go to college, I just knew I would. I didn't plan to study Zoology, but I did (although it was probably very misguided). I didn't plan to go abroad, but then I went to Africa. It wasn't my plan to come to Korea, but here I am.
So why am I being pushed for another plan?!
No plan, not for one of those, but they've all happened - with major success and life changing results. Isn't it clear I'm more the "leap before looking", the "fly by the seat of your pants" type? A plan?! Don't be silly! I only plan out traveling.
Plans fall through. Plans don't always work. But more so... your plans, aren't my plans.
My life, as scattered, confusing, unfocused... un-everything to you, is my life.
There's things in life I definitely want, but at this point I don't need to plan for them. Or maybe that is the plan - don't plan and let life be.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did.
Let live. Walk alone. Have disappointments. Have frustration. Get it right. Get it wrong. Do all the things that make life, life.
I've been here six months and the only plan I have is to: save money for the next six, think on life a little, re-sign (most likely) for another year and see what plan comes up.
There are lots of plans in my head, but I don't know which one is for me yet. I know that at some point I'll figure it out, but for now - there's living.
So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
And have some fun! I definitely think people need to have some fun!
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